What I Gave Up for Lent

Nope. Not me. Never observed Lent before in my life. Didn't know what it was -- didn't care. Until we came to seminary. Being here has exposed us to all sorts of "high church" traditions that Jason & I had never observed before, Lent being one of them. I was further intrigued on Monday night at our Townhouse Ladies Bible study when one of our ladies informed us that she was going on a "media fast" for Lent -- no TV. Wow, that's commitment.

Now, for those of you unfamiliar with Lent, let me explain: Lent is the 40-day long period of fasting & prayer before Easter. The purpose of Lent is to prepare the believer through prayer & self-denial for the celebration of Holy Week & Easter in particular.

So, heck . . . why not??? And what have I decided to give up, you ask? As much as I hate to admit it, I tend to be a rather negative person. One "bad" thing in my day can easily wipe out 10 wonderful blessings in my mind. Last night I showed up for church, sleep-deprived & unprepared for my ministry . . . & whining to anyone who would listen!!! I bet I was a peach to be around last night! So, what am I giving up?

The "Oh-Woe-Is-Me" attitude that has found permanent residence in my thoughts, my speech, & my actions!! I am evicting it!! So pack up & move out OWIM. You are no longer welcome here.

The way I see it, it takes 30 days to create a habit, so 40 days of positive thinking, counting my blessings, & praising my God when I'm tempted to complain should do the trick!!

Interesting Perspective

It was a good day for the Dickinson girls. Daddy was working on a paper all morning & then in class from noon until 9:30 pm, so we made plans . . . we were movers & shakers . . . we had things to do.

The day started with a trip to PetSmart to admire all the fuzzy little critters that we couldn't take home. If the girls had their druthers, we would now be the proud owners of a pet Chinchilla! Although it's quite possible that Peyton would have smuggled out a rather peculiar looking lizard in her pocket!

Then it was on to Michael's. Caleigh is learning about our solar system in school & so we are going to make the typical styrofoam ball solar system to hang in our playroom. But who could resist the vinyl clings . . . originally priced at $24.99 - marked down to $4.99?!?!

Caleigh's new wall art

Peyton's new wall art

The best part was when Jason called at 10:30 to tell us he was done with his paper! Praise the Lord! (Did I mention he had been up until 3 am this morning & back up at 6 am to get this paper done????) We had just enough time to have lunch with Daddy before he had to get to class.

As fun & exciting as our day was, the best was yet to come. The girls knew that if they could behave, we would go out for ice cream after dinner. Just a little special something to make another night without Daddy more cheerful.

Disclaimer: I have often heard the advice that you should never threaten your child with any punishment that you are not prepared to follow through with. I.e. "If you don't stop that right now, I'm turning this car around!" Because I value such sage advice, I often avoid said tactic. Until tonight . . .

The girls were in rare form. I'm not sure what exactly transpired in their little brains between the hours of 2 & 4 (when they were napping), but they were WILD women when they woke up. Arguing, bickering, bossing, picking, yelling, irritating, shouting, disobeying . . . I have no idea who those children were. I was at my last straw. And then I said the fatal words. And I said them more than once. "If you guys don't knock it off, we're not going out for ice cream tonight!" How many chances could I give them before I had to follow through? Here's how it all went down . . .

Caleigh & Peyton were in the kitchen "planting seeds" (dropping Littlest Pet Shop animals on the floor), "watering" them (covering them with blankets, & "harvesting" them (gathering them up in baskets). Well, apparently Peyton wasn't "harvesting" correctly, so Caleigh started in with the scolding & the bossing. Then Peyton starting in with the screaming & the shrieking. And each was trying to out-do the other in volume!!! What was I to do?!?

So here I am, blogging on the computer with 2 monkeys on my bed behind me, naming all the Barbies & chucking the pillows off my bed.

But here comes the interesting perspective . . . I am so disappointed that I didn't get to share in a fun, exciting, ice cream-filled night with my girls. Tonight I will miss out on the laughter & the the giggles that I know would overtake them. Tonight I will not help them change out of ice cream-smeared clothing. Tonight I will not get to hear, "Momma, that was SO fun!" And then it hit me. This must be just a fraction of what it's like for the Lord when He has to chastise me. He doesn't get to share in the fun, exciting joys & blessings He has in store for me because I just didn't listen. Despite the warnings He gives, I just barrel on, doing my own thing. I wonder how many giggles over bowls of ice cream I have missed with Him.

Hmmm.

Losing Focus

I learned this week how easy it is to lose focus. Just one small shift & you lose all perspective. Just one small shift & disappointment has plenty of room to settle in.

I learned this week that I need to constantly check my intentions. Do I do what I do for the praise of men? Or do I do what I do for the praise of the King?

My wonderful husband brought this verse to my attention:

"We do not know what to do, but our eyes are on ________."

Perhaps you know the way that verse should end. But my husband gently reminded me that I had been filling that blank with all sorts of things. And when things didn't work out exactly the way I told God they should, holy disappointment!

So here I am re-focusing. Amazing . . . it takes a lot more work to get that shift back then it did to let it slip.

"We do not know what to do, but our eyes are on YOU."

Major Milestones

Another semester here at seminary has begun!! We're still feeling a little shell-shocked from the insanely busy, nigh near disastrous ending from last semester . . . however, through Christ we can do all things. So we feel up to the new challenges this semester will bring.

As Jason prepares to spend his days & nights in class & in the library, the girls & I are taking on some MAJOR projects . . . potty-training & reading!

The idea of spending my spring & summer chained to a potty did not appeal to me, so I threw caution to the wind (caution being all that advice that says, "She'll do it when she's ready. You can't push her.") & started potty-training Peyton. Now, for those of you who know Peyton, you know that she is one smart cookie . . . she just happens to be one of the most stubborn people I have ever met (hmmm, wonder where she gets that?). It did not take her long to figure out how things work & by the end of one day (did I mention it was a very looooooong day, requiring much patience & persistence?), she had peed on the potty 3 times!!! What a celebration we had!! We are almost diaper-free!!!

Our other major milestone happened when I least expected it. Caleigh recently finished mastering her alphabet in our homeschool curriculum. Just last week we started working on the short 'a' sound. Well, on Tuesday nights Jason & I help with the seminary's community meals. Jason is in class up until the time the meal starts, so basically I'm the helper. I needed something to keep the girls busy while I was in the kitchen, so I had Caleigh trace about 20 words that had the short 'a' sound in it. The next day during school, she sounded out EVERY SINGLE WORD -- she read them all!!!!!!!!! It was the coolest thing!

But when I'm not busy potty-training & reading, there are a few things that I am really looking forward to this semester. The Townhouse Ladies Bible Study is up & running again. I'm really going out on a limb this time & leading the Bible study with no book to depend upon. We are doing a study of II Peter 1:5-8:

"Supplement your faith with a generous provision of moral excellence, & moral excellence with knowledge, & knowledge with self-control, & self-control with patient endurance, & patient endurance with godliness, & godliness with brotherly affection, & brotherly affection with love for everyone. The more you grow like this, the more productive & useful you will be in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ."

I also have my hands super-full for this Easter season. I am directing a drama for the Sunday before Palm Sunday. I am also directing 3 dramas for Holy Week -- one on Maundy Thursday, one on Good Friday, & one on Easter morning. Busy, busy, busy girl. But loving every minute of it!!